Apparently...

...somebody envies me; and it makes me laugh! Me? To be envied? I just turned 41, and I had prayed to be either married, engaged, or green light on getting engaged by now. Unless, however, there is something I do not know about yet, none of these three things has happened yet. That, of course, does not mean I cannot be - nor that I am not - content. It simply means that I have an essential part of happiness: not getting what I want!

Yes, however; though: someone obviously envies my "success" here in Calgary. I, however, again, laugh at that. I am blessed, but not to be envied. And I pray to soon be married, in Jesus' name, amen!

Love,

Daniel

Waxing...

...gibbous moon tonight! :)

Daniel

I love it, OK?

All this waiting. It is perfect. Thank you for continuing to make this so real. Even if I do not get the response I am hoping for, I will give you this: ye are keeping this 100% REAL! And I love you for that!


Love,


Daniel

By all means, though!...

...I love this! The fact that I could make a snap decision to rent a car, drive up to Red Deer, see "Woodlawn" (an AMAZING movie! PLEASE see it!) Stay at my Aunt and Unlce's, READ "The Affectionate Husband" (which I did this morning), drive here to Three Hills, and simply be the uncle? Church-wise, be free to go where God leads! I will not have freedom like this for ever - or even for long; so I DO appreciate it while I have it. I simply, however, comes with the loneliness, and it is not a walk in the park. Therefore, ye married people, HOLD ON TO EACH OTHER! BECAUSE YE CAN!

Love,

Daniel

Alright, ye married people!

Ye do not have to do THIS! What I mean is, getting tossed to and fro by the uncertainty of NOT KNOWING! Thinking you know but then running into the fact that you DO NOT KNOW! I mean, once you are married, YOU KNOW! No more not knowing! You have made your decision! And - people - I am going to be HAPPY when that happens for me, OK? Because I am exhausted from all this uncertainty! I will be giving up freedom, and being my own person - which WILL be a sacrifice! Therefore, by all means, I am enjoying this while it lasts - but this has to get over! It has to be over! Please, be over! God, I need this to be over! Bring it to pass! Please, in Jesus' name, amen!

Daniel